Kiss my finger

I've had issues with the subject of healing.  In the past I've prayed for healing for others or myself without result.  Recently, I have been experiencing a lot of pain in my hip (possibly bursitis) - which was an issue because I'm using it often during the day.  I thought why can't God just take this away?  I know He could , I believe He could have didn't I ?  I was never really sure.  I wrestled with thoughts revolving around my doubt and thoughts that God was far away and didn't really care about my hip pain.

This Sunday I wrestled with them still and then God gave me a picture of my daughter Sarah.  She had hurt her finger (they are forever getting them pinched, or squished) and came to me and asked me "mom, can you kiss my finger?" She was expecting something from me- comfort , sympathy .  I remembered that we are God's children.  Is that what God wants from me?  Me to come to Him like a little girl ...with the knowledge that everything will be better after He addresses the situation? To leave my ocean of doubt behind and to think - I will ask Him and if nothing changes , I will ask Him again  and again until something does...

When Sarah comes to me with her injured finger expecting me to "make it better" I know that the pain will go away on its own and a kiss and a hug will help her feel better until it does.  Maybe as the "parent" figure God knows more about my pain then I do and will treat me but possibly not the same way I think He should ... I still don't have the complete concept of what this means.

James 1:6-8New International Version (NIV)

6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.